Today I admit defeat. I attempted to go to the botanic garden children's area on my own. Well not really on my own since we met up with Heather and her twin boys. Heather and I have been able to accomplish many play dates as a team (she is a great helper), but this was too much for me.
- The layout is not ideal for us. There are several sections to play in but all have dual entry/exit points.
- The entire area is either wet cement or mud (slippery and dirty). The girls are good about falling (no crying they just get right back up) but the cement and mud compounded with the falling just made everyone a complete mess.
- There are a lot of older kids running around forcing me to dodge them when chasing after my little ones.
- We are good walkers, but not THAT good. Uneven river rocks prove too challenging for me in flip-flops let alone three new-ish walkers.
After Fiona exited in one direction and Daphne in another all while Stella bit it (but didn't cry) in the mud, I was done. I picked up two girls and put the other in my bjorn and stumbled out of the area. While trying to strap everyone in the stroller, Daphne ran towards some sleeping woman and started pulling her hair, I didn't even care. I was defeated and pretended not to notice. The woman didn't say anything, I think she could see by my face that I was overwhelmed. I ran away in shame barely holding it together while loading/driving/unloading everyone. Once we got home, I changed everyone into clean clothes and put them down for their nap. It is then that I broke down. I was exhausted both emotionally and physically.
I pride myself on being able to do anything I need to with the girls. I am so thankful to have our trio that I will do whatever it takes to get them the most 'normal' childhood experiences possible. Sure it may take me longer, but I can usually figure it out. This was the first time that I left an activity in defeat. Hopefully in a couple days I will recover from this experience and adventure out with the girls again.......but it will not be to the children's garden alone, I can guarantee that.